Being 26 years old I really haven't had a mom in my life. I talk to my mom on a weekly bases but never really thought of her as my mom now. When she left me I had no clue what was going on. I always thought my mom would come back. I was told that I would tell people "my mommy's coming back you need to leave because my mom is coming home soon". I dont remember that when now being my age becase I have gone though a lot of changes in my life.
I dont know if I can ever forgive my mom for leaving me and not having any contact with me until I was 18 years old. So for years I thought I didn't have a mom. Every Christmas before I would go to bed I would ask santa " All I want for christmas is for you to bring my mom home to me". When that never happened I ended up giving up on that wish.
Every mothers day I would always make my aunt and my grandmother something. When all the kids in school where making a card for there mother I would be making one for them. I got picked on a lot because I wasn't like the other kids having both a mom and a dad.
Me and my mom don't really have that daughter mom relationship we are really more liek best friends. I will never forget that part of my life it will always come back to my mind once and a while. I know I will always have my aunt and my grandmother there to help me a long in life. I was never really able to talk to my aunt or grandmother about certain things that I wanted to know I alwaysw had to learn about them for myself. I will never do that to my children when I have kids. I always want them to have both a mother adn father in there lives.
Should I forgive my mother for messing up my life or Should I not that is what I am confused on.
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